Is it abuse, or just your imagination?

Sometimes it can be difficult to identify if you are in an abusive situation… particularly when you love the person you are with, and they express love to you.

Here are 6 signs you might be in a cycle of abuse:

1. Your partner doesn’t like you spending time with other people, and actively tries to isolate you from family and friends. Your partner feels like they should be enough to meet all your needs and resents if you need anything from anyone else. Sometimes they also like to control what you eat, wear and how much money you have.
2. Your partner puts you down, belittles you and makes fun of your thoughts/personality/body/hopes and dreams. You often feel like you are hopeless or worthless because of they way you are spoken to. Sometimes this is then followed by your partner praising you for the thing they just criticised you for.
3. You often feel confused about your reality because your partner denies having said things or twists your words into something you didn’t say or mean. You feel powerless to explain yourself or to understand what has happened and feel exhausted by trying to work out reality/truth.
4. You find yourself ‘walking on eggshells’… you are careful about what you do, who you see and what you say, because you don’t know if it is going to ‘set off’ your partner. Seemingly small things will send your partner in to a rage – it could be the tone of your voice, or what you cooked for dinner. Its hard for you to know what will trigger this anger.
5. After an explosion, your partner expresses remorse and may supply you with gifts and loving words. Commonly you hear things like “it will never happen again, I love you so much”, or "please don't leave me, I couldn't live without you.". You often feel guilty after these experiences, because you question whether it was your fault to begin with, and you feel selfish if you stand up for what you need, especially after they have apologised for it.  
6. You seem to have ‘honeymoon’ phases, where everything is ok, things are calm, but they are always followed by a build-up of tension and an escalation to a confrontation. These honeymoon phases make you feel like everything will be ok, if only you can keep the tension at bay.  You just have to make sure your partner is happy. You feel a lot of hope and relief during this period of your relationship, but inevitably, the tension comes again.

 
If these sound familiar, you may want to look into understanding the cycle of abuse a bit more. You can find details here: CYCLE OF ABUSE  Remember, abuse doesn’t always equal violence… you can be emotionally, sexually and financially abused as well. If this post has left you feeling unstable, or like you need support, please reach out for help. 
 
Important contacts:
 
1800 respect: 1800 737 732 www.1800respect.org.au
Lifeline: 131114 www.lifeline.org.au
Relationships Australia 1300 364 277 www.relationships.org.au
 
You can also contact your local police station and speak with a Domestic Violence Liaison Officer (DVLO). A DVLO will:
-Provide you with information about the Apprehended Violence Order process
-Support victims of domestic and family violence through the court process
-Assist victims to access other relevant local support services
www.domesticviolence.nsw.gov.au/get-help/police

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